8th aniversario

This anniversary was a different one. It was a pretty day, very pretty just like our wedding 8 years ago. But I wasn't carefree like the day we married. I haven't been the wife I thought I'd be....at all. I felt foolish "celebrating" on a day where I felt way less than adequate.

My sister-in-law came over and I went on a mission to get some steaks and a couple of other things for an anniversary dinner I was planning. I took a detour to Rite Aid where I found a card that said what I was thinking( and you know how rare that is). This is what it reads:

I remember when we first fell in love. I felt so happy, and we began our life together, sharing our thoughts and dreams and making discoveries about each other. We formed a closeness that just got better over time. Maybe it hasn't always been easy, but as we celebrate today, I want you to know our marriage makes me very happy, and I love you more now than ever. Happy Anniversary. I wrote, " You know, this is a different anniversary "feel" than others. I feel unworthy of your love, but I am at peace because I know you love me so much -even in my lowest moments. I value you and am delighted that you're my husband."

I think God gave me a happiness when I rested in the truth that He is making our marriage beautiful through these years and though our anniversary won't be blissful and carefree from time to time, it is still something to celebrate.

I went to the Barrington Coffee House and purchased a vanilla latte for Josh (it's his favorite). When I stopped by his work to give it to him, he met me in the driveway. There were tears because the sheepish feelings still lingered. To my surprise, Josh was heading home because his boss gave him the afternoon off and a free babysitter~

We had a beautiful day with each other in Haddonfield.

I love him.

a lot.

~the vanilla latte was the worst he's ever had;)