Just Visiting~

I like the thought of New Years resolutions. Some people don't, I get it. I know that January 1st is just a day but it's the day after the old year, the day of a brand new one.
It's always nice to resolve to eat better, make tighter schedules, to be a better wife and mother. But this year I wasn't going to think that my earthly self wasn't coming into the new year with me.
There will be times of great joy and growth. And there will be times of sadness and stubbornness. I just resolve to "shed". HOPEFULLY 10lbs, but really;). Anything that looks ugly, hinders an open communication with God, turns my eyes to things that will pass away...I'm going to *not resolve* but take it all before God and ask Him to remove them.
I want to simply open my heart to His changing. I am looking forward to seeing a change in the way I think of others. I want to see people the way Christ sees them. I can't wait to see past the actions and into the deeper part of why we do what we do.
I've been "looking through the glass" of people who've been hurting so badly this year. People who are very sick, people who lost their loved ones, people who turn away from God because of their hurting and misunderstanding. It's an awkward place because I feel like I shouldn't be so affected when I'm not the one in so much pain. And I've also seen such joy. Babies born, adoptions, new homes, and marriages...All I know is this, that the utmost joy and the utmost suffering bring us to God with the same level of passion. The more I read in His Word the more I think that all of our circumstances whether dreadful or amazing should bring us to a deep longing to know Him more and a longing for heaven. This earthly life is joyful and painful. I want it all to glorify God. I want for His truth in my life to rub off onto everyone I know.
I resolve to "shed" and to remember that "I'm just visiting"~